Since there is no medal for being the first person to share thoughts to their IG stories I have been sitting in my thoughts for a couple days trying to find words. The pointing a finger to the opposition technique hasn’t worked in years and to be honest, we are getting quite desensitized to it as it no longer carries the weight it once did. The left will push their narrative. The right will push theirs. Where are the people that believe it’s possibly more complicated than that? Here is me raising my hand.
Too conservative for progressives, too progressive for conservatives.
And this is where I reside. In my little own bubble that appears to be getting smaller as more people are gravitating to the extremism of both sides. I am not one to emotionally react to anything. I utilize logic to a fault. It could be characterized as my defense mechanism. But It’s how I protect my head and my heart so I can show up for my kids as my best version. Because ultimately that’s my goal each and everyday.
Becoming a mother forever changed me. I’ll never forget walking out of that hospital room knowing I was a different person than the one that waddled in a few days prior. I no longer was the carefree person without a worry in the world. I was now responsible for the life of a child and I will never take that responsibility for granted. It is my life’s work to raise these girls to be the exceptional humans they were created to be.
Instead of anxiously awaiting your Governmental knight in shining armer to save us, let’s do something else. Because let’s be honest, they don’t want what’s best for us. They want what’s best for their agenda. So while I have lost hope in our current generation and older generations to actually be the change. I know we can band together and raise these kids to be the future we need. But we need to change direction before it’s too late.
Before the www. and social media our information and experiences that helped shape us came from our direct community and daily lives. Of course we still experienced negative events, but they were never at this magnitude or in our faces all day and night. And negative events were met with support. Heres my ok boomer moment, but those were the good ole days. And we need to go back. Because think of how beautiful that would be. Communities across America banding together when tragedy happens. On a daily basis I see moms in my community searching for formula for moms in need. Coming together to search stores and sharing what they have. I truly believe moms can come together to change the world.
But we need to shut off the Internet and get to work instead.We need to quiet the noise. The noise of the world. This means turn off the news, unfollow those that project this continuation of separation. As humans we aren’t designed to endure and process this amount of violence and grief. And what makes this even worse, is that we now feel the need to let our kids into this world. This same world adults have to take breaks from because it gets too dark. We sign off social media for reprieve and to catch our breaths. And yet we expect our children with developing minds to handle this darkness. We aren’t protecting them. We are letting them on social media where they converse with strangers and have the most vile things said to them without repercussions. We are talking to them like they are adults about adult problems. They are hearing us blame everyone else around us. And of course then they emulate. So the cycle continues.
I am a nearly 40 year woman who knows who I am and am strong in my convictions. And yet these last couple years have changed me. I got lost in the turmoil of the www I truly believe we are not made to endure the amount of trauma that we are shown daily. And what breaks my heart the most is the amount of anguish we are putting on our children hearts. They are drowning. And we are just pushing them farther out to sea.
I am definitely guilty of feeling like I need to prepare my girls for the world by telling them of all the dangers out there lurking. And I struggle with this bc I want to be the source for my kids but I want them to be kids and not worry. But I’m going to do better. I’m going to prepare them for the world and all its beauty by introducing them to amazing people, unique places, acts of service. But I’m going to quite the noise. Im going to pray more because the world needs it. Im going to show up for the people around me. Im going to call Senators. Then Im going to get to work in my bubble because those changes will take place far before legislative actions. A single act of kindness can go so far. So go get to know your neighbors. Create the community our kids need.